Progress Report ID-14440 by clean_dreams

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• Mari O, 21 years old female, weighing 60 kg / 132 lbs, 65 in /165.1 cm tall, Spiritual. From Dublin, Ireland IE

• Doing 12 days of Water Fasting. Starting February 2, 2012

• Reasons for Fasting:
  Although weight loss is a huge plus for me, I'm using it as a self healing tool. I've struggled with disordered eating, and thinking for about a year, and a half now. Fasting is about the only thing that has helped me feel in control, and given me a positive self image, and outlook. I've refused to go to a doctor, or therapist..I want to take care of my issues on my own, water fasting really has helped. Though I feel myself slipping back since christmas. So I'm going to snap myself back in line. It's just starting that I've been struggling with, so I'd really like some support.

• Past Fasting Experience:
  Previous short 1-5 day fasts. A 19 day master cleanse, and a 10 day fast. I had attempted 10 day fasts before, and always quit the first few days, so then I tried the master cleanse. I lost 21lbs, and felt great, but the first day off I ate everything in site. I did that for 3 months, and gained all the weight back. After those three months I finally finished a 10 day fast. I was miserable, and on edge the entire time. Though when I was finished I wanted healthy things, I was in control of all my senses, and so happy. It was more than worth it. I lost 14 pounds, and kept it off, also lost another 3 pounds. When christmas came around though, I told myself I could let go of control for christmas weekend. I havn't regained control since. Every day since christmas I've been trying to start a fast. I've gained 5 pounds, some days I lose 2-3 lbs but i'm basically steady at a 5 pound gain.

• Present Diet:
  Restriction, and binging.

• State of Mind:
  Trying to hold myself together, and not let my husband know that I'm falling apart again.